Monday, October 20, 2008

25 years leap

















Each one has their own interesting stories.
I'd like to phrase them as fillers of the leap. It cud be by choice that the fillers are reflective on the individual's face.

And the face reflects the state of mind while a picture paints a thousand words.

One could be alone yet happy with it, the other may have everyone by herside - but still searching.

I just hope i'm real..

difference

there's a world of difference between 'wanting to' and 'obligated to'.

clothes in the closet


feeling like some ...

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Monday, October 06, 2008

Family @ Eid 2008


Mak and her siblings

Plus the children

Almarhum Abah's clan

Qayyum and ex-classmates

Makan ...

My cousin's merisik @ mak's

Makan @ merisik










Hence the up 3kg!!!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Semoga Ramadhan datang lagi for me..

feeling sad as my cycle parked-in today.
sad tapi tetap bersyukur i managed the last 24 days with taraweeh, and the last 3 nites with qiyam.

ya Allah - tubna ilallah, warojarkna ilallah...
terimalah ibadah hambamu.

i amused myself at www.yearbookyourself.com

1960


1968


1976


1994

Thursday, September 18, 2008

the next

1. The greatest dignity to be found in death is the dignity of the life that preceded it.

2. Good health doesn't guarantee anything, the wisest thing to do is to live everyday as though it will be our last.

3. There is always a dignity that proceeds from the life well-lived by preparing for the next world, and from the acceptance of one's own death.

4. Death makes more precious each hour of those we have been given, it demands that life must be useful and rewarding.

5. It is not in the last weeks or days that we compose the message that will be remembered, but in all the decades that preceded them.

6. Unique circumstances of death will be granted to someone with a unique personality.

7. The race of men is like the race of leaves. As one generation flourishes, another decays.

8. Death is easiest for those who during their lives have given it most thought, as though always to be prepared for its imminence.

9. It is possible to die resigned and reconciled, patiently and tranquilly, having experienced life more fully because of the constant awareness that life may soon come to an end.

10. The utility of living consists not in the length of days, but in the use of time, a man may have lived long, and yet lived but little.

from Mak @ my four zero


Monday, September 15, 2008

pillow talks

Dangerous - kalau hati tiada iman...

Friday, September 05, 2008

Always and Forever


Happy birthday to my always, from your forever...
May Allah grant you all your wishes and doa.

Friday, August 29, 2008

sepatu baru

seolah di perhentian
menanti
setiap langkah
berhenti
langkah
henti lagi

menanti
menoleh
kiri dan kanan
kiri ke kanan?

lelah
tak bersudah
datang dan pergi
datang ke pergi?

redhalah
perhentian ini
adalah dunia mu
nokhtah sebuah perjalanan dulu
permulaan jalan baru

menapaklah
dengan sepatu baru
setiap langkah kau sendiri

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

Ya Allah, thank you for blessing me with yet another Ramadhan.
Beri aku kemudahan untuk mengecap sebolehnya kelazatan Ramadhan Mu.

Hopeful this is not the last...

eggs in a basket

sepatu baru

seolah di perhentian
menanti
setiap langkah
berhenti
langkah
henti lagi

menanti
menoleh
kiri dan kanan
kiri ke kanan?

lelah
tak bersudah
datang dan pergi
datang ke pergi?

redhalah
perhentian ini
adalah dunia mu
nokhtah sebuah perjalanan dulu
permulaan jalan baru

menapaklah
dengan sepatu baru
setiap langkah kau sendiri

Monday, August 25, 2008

THE RING

was cleaning up the place yesterday evening after sundries shopping. awa's nagging that the place is full of nicknacks and clutter is getting into me. planning to rid most of the things which are of mainly of the past. hmmm - perhaps sell 'em on ebay - plan next week.

was almost done sorting things out & cleaned the place when i noticed i missed my ring. frantic! i looked for the normal places where i use to park it - not there.

OMG - i lost my ring.

found it half an hour later. was the longest 30 minutes in my life... with noone to turn to, all sorts of imaginable thoughts and aftermatch playing in my head. i have never in my life revisit my trash!

the feeling is simply indescribable! the loss - strange that it includes that as tho i fail him - felt even more distance - even more all alone.

oh no! i've come this stage this fast... ??? thots, thots, and lots of thots...

for the emotional and physical loss i've just experienced, i'm determined to have the ring in only 3 places -
1) on my finger
2) by my bedside in the wooden case
3) by my dressing table in the marble case

non-nego!

lessons
- everything has its place/places
- not to take things for granted
- when things turn into routine and automated, they become less special / gets less attention and become less important

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Nikmat


each second, each minute, each hour, each day, each year - is a nikmat from Allah, enabling us to prepare our self for Jannah. other worldly matters are mere temporary. to remember the priority, to live & cherish each moment ...

190808


40!

Dengan nama Allah, Yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Pengasih.
Selawat ke atas junjungan Nabi Muhammad SAW dan ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat baginda.

Ya Allah,

Ampuni dosaku.
Berikan hidayah dan keberkatan dalam hidupku, bimbinglah daku, tingkatkan keimananku. Jadikan aku insan solehah, yang dapat bersama suamiku dalam mencapai jannah. Jadikan aku anak yang dapat membahagia dan mendoakan ibubapaku. Jadikan aku ibu yang dapat menjadikan zuriatku anak-anak yang bakal mendoakan aku & suamiku..

Ya Allah, beri kejayaan kepada kami dunia dan akhirat.

Amin. Ya Rabbul 'alamin.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

distance


i am ok without him.
i would definitely be ok-er with him.