my weekend sanctuaries

Life has it for me that i am tuned as such that my activities do not depend on the availability of others. It was difficult in the beginning - that as much as i could, i avoided being in the public - not wanting to see 'the togetherness' that i failed to have - or rather - that i was not blessed with, for reasons i now know.

I still do feel envious - at times - on those having the leisure spending time with their family and love ones - tak kisah ler kat mana or buat apa. These lot come as a package and that's envious - again, at times.

Alhamdulillah, time is a good heal. Am counting on it :)

I now have the options to either be on my own or if i like, welcome the company of others. Sounds selfish? No - it's a defence mechanism.



i appreciate the calmness,
dalam kesamaran bilik penuh selesa,
jejari halus membelai, mengurut,
melayan ceritera ku
sentuhan demi sentuhan
aku terlena...



i appreciate the calmness
berjemaah dengan wajah-wajah
yang sering berpesan
tentang tujuan perjalanan
mengajak bersama mengingati
dan memuji mu Tuhan
aku terjaga...

Tepuk Dada

We are so helpless - and cannot do much on the situation in Gaza. But each of us can do this bit. It is our choice - yours and mine. Let's start looking for the other options...