THE RING

was cleaning up the place yesterday evening after sundries shopping. awa's nagging that the place is full of nicknacks and clutter is getting into me. planning to rid most of the things which are of mainly of the past. hmmm - perhaps sell 'em on ebay - plan next week.

was almost done sorting things out & cleaned the place when i noticed i missed my ring. frantic! i looked for the normal places where i use to park it - not there.

OMG - i lost my ring.

found it half an hour later. was the longest 30 minutes in my life... with noone to turn to, all sorts of imaginable thoughts and aftermatch playing in my head. i have never in my life revisit my trash!

the feeling is simply indescribable! the loss - strange that it includes that as tho i fail him - felt even more distance - even more all alone.

oh no! i've come this stage this fast... ??? thots, thots, and lots of thots...

for the emotional and physical loss i've just experienced, i'm determined to have the ring in only 3 places -
1) on my finger
2) by my bedside in the wooden case
3) by my dressing table in the marble case

non-nego!

lessons
- everything has its place/places
- not to take things for granted
- when things turn into routine and automated, they become less special / gets less attention and become less important

Nikmat

each second, each minute, each hour, each day, each year - is a nikmat from Allah, enabling us to prepare our self for Jannah. other worldly matters are mere temporary. to remember the priority, to live & cherish each moment ...

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40!

Dengan nama Allah, Yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Pengasih.
Selawat ke atas junjungan Nabi Muhammad SAW dan ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat baginda.

Ya Allah,

Ampuni dosaku.
Berikan hidayah dan keberkatan dalam hidupku, bimbinglah daku, tingkatkan keimananku. Jadikan aku insan solehah, yang dapat bersama suamiku dalam mencapai jannah. Jadikan aku anak yang dapat membahagia dan mendoakan ibubapaku. Jadikan aku ibu yang dapat menjadikan zuriatku anak-anak yang bakal mendoakan aku & suamiku..

Ya Allah, beri kejayaan kepada kami dunia dan akhirat.

Amin. Ya Rabbul 'alamin.

distance

i am ok without him.
i would definitely be ok-er with him.

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O Allah, bless this union with hidayah and barokah.

190708 - images

xxx

many a times my thoughts have flown unbidden
many a times i have not found words enough to express
how special a place you hold in my heart
you have made my life a dream come true
sweetheart, i am glad i found you..

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i'm so glad you're part of my life. i love you more and more each day xxx

Life Goes On

Back to life, and everything else seems more important. Life goes on..

Reborn

Alhamdulillah.

Awa is done with Hajj. MAy Allah accepts all your ibadah and bless you with Haji Mabroora.

Praying that you are all so refreshed - renewed - reborn...

Amin.

missing you

missing you much
could almost feel
my heart slipping out
venturing
to where you are

wishing we're together...

7-24 December 2007 - AWA @ Hajj

Labbaikallaahumma Labbaik

It's a form of His rahmat on you - to be amongs His selected guest.
Go for it - soul searching, soul cleansing and come back - reborn!

May Allah bless you with a smooth journey and a mabrur Hajj.

xxx

Some up-lifting words!

: Trust in Allah and we will get through this together
: Please keep your head high we are nearly there!

: keep training I want you easy to lift

5-Dec-2007

2 years ago - today, received my talaq. Life has been tough - but alhamdulillah it gets better.

i wonder

a: love you tonnesssssssssssss. you know that don't you

n: aaaa....... :) some times i do, other times i wonder

Sze Ma Lam

As much as you'd like to keep a relationship, it's best to stay away from nurturing it, knowing the possibilities of things that could happen next. It is sad to let go - that special bond. It'll always be a very special bond.

It's about options and choices; sacrifices made for our love ones.

You can't have it all... Life's like that.

20-28th October 2007 AWA again

It seemed like forever waiting for you at the airport...

Finally - again!

xxx

15 Syaaban 1428

Ya Allah
di dalam keberkatan malam nisfu syaaban
dan segala lipatan rahsianya
aku bermohon kepadaMu
ampunilah dosaku
terimalah taubatku
panjangkan usiaku dengan kemanisan dan kerinduan ibadah untuk Mu
tingkatkan imanku dengan ketenangan dan keredhaan atas setiap ketentuan Mu
rezekikan aku dengan cinta suci kasih sayangMu

Ya Allah
sekiranya tiba waktuku
melewati penghujung perjalanan
matikan aku dalam iman

Amin

- suluh -

Peace

A certainty
in this heart
and mind
that
i am
using my life
for worthy purpose
that each day
i am
able to love more
than the day before
that i am
becoming
a better person
each day
that in my own way
i am
touching and improving
the lives of others
it is maintained
with the conviction
that the way
i am spending energies
of my life
makes sense..

O God, guide me and bless me with your love.
Amin.

- suluh -

Return

Everyday
is a day closer
to reaching this journey home
to return to Him
where we belong

Posted By suluh

calls

i could hear
my heart calls on you
with each touch of heart warming beauty

the gentle breeze caressing
the stars glittering
the sun and its rays
the birds chirping
the butterfly teasing the blooming flowers
the swaying falling leaves
the lushful green hills
the white cloud painting the blue sky
the rich colour of dawn

the thoughts of your whispers
the memories of our laughters

i could hear
my heart calls on you
through my dreams
we laugh and love
and simply 'being'
you and i
feeling each other once again

could you hear it?

xxx